Wednesday, March 31
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// I love you more than anything in this world,
though you'll never believe me in a million years.
You only come by once in my life,
and i wnt let this love go easily.
Baby,
Happy 1 year anniversary!
Just 3 words.
I love you.
Am i living in self-denial?!?!?!
slammed - alac | 1:53 PM |
Tuesday, March 30
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Was tui-ing at Angel's.
Hahaha... 1st time go there.
Wana see how it look like.
Why it got the girls addicted.
Not that fun.
But the songs, not bad. Can listen.
Saw some girls dancing infront of the mirrors.
Let me think of them too.. haha.
Oh, and i've been lao sai-ing the whole day. tmd.
That girl asked me about ah gui and ah dai.
Whether they're still growing not. haha. silly.
Been years since she last saw them.
Guess she misses them too!
Put aside our relationship,
What do you want in life?
You asked me before, and now i'm throwing this question back to you.
Is the life you're leading now, the life you want to have?
It will get you nowhere.
I do care for you.
If you've made up your mind about what you want,
I'll be the support along the way and company you through it all.
I need a miracle
i wana be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me.
Ecstasy kills your brain.
Katamine burst your veins.
Other drugs dent your skull,
And leave you nothing to gain.
slammed - alac | 4:03 AM |
Monday, March 29
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Woke up today feeling excited!
Cause i'm meeting a friend that i've haven't seen for ages!
In case you guys don't know about it, she my ex-gf! Guess who?
Don't know whether she got become prettier not. Hahaha.
And she's bringing her friends along, heard that not bad looking ones k.
Maybe like samantha like that?
Hmmm... not bad not bad.
Shall see later.
We met through friendster.
You have always been there for me.
Your msgs, your mails are always on time when you sense something is wrong.
You name yourself -anonymous- to prevent gossips.
You walked me through the past few months.
Now that you're in the same shoe as me.
I wun leave you alone.
We shall walk this through together.
Let's just prepare for the worst k?
I can't seem to find you.
Are you okay?
Call me when you see this entry.
Love.
Ly.
Every answer i have from you made my heart ache.
slammed - alac | 5:41 PM |
Sunday, March 28
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//If you leave
If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
With hours left time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last
I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday
If you leave I won't cry
I won't waste one single day
But if you leave don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will
I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again
If you leave
Don't look back
Don't look back
slammed - alac | 7:30 PM |
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PS: The previous post is just what i thought at that moment. It might not be the facts. Just wanting to make myself clear, if not misunderstanding will occur.
Anyway, thankz pals! thankz people! Thanks everyone for your advices and all.
Special love to hanhan, my love, dawn and vic who companied me through the worst day.
Was at sos. Abit no face to cry but ya, who doesn't?
I least i never cry like fuck. nods.
Not forgetting gerald, drake, vern and cole.
Pau and rick with the constant, " are you okay" everynow and then. *huggies to all
Oh, and my cousin avilyn who is far in australia but never forget to care about me. *double hugs
I didn't get drunk. Congrats me?
I don't feel like getting drunk, like what i used to do.
Last night is a night of madness.
A time for me to go crazy.
1st and the last time i'm gonna be like that.
No more.
And
I love you still.
I want you still.
But if you want me to walk on, i will.
I wun stumble.
Vic, just read your blog.
I don't know what more to say.
Thank you.
Love ya.
I'm the Great Pretender
slammed - alac | 5:14 PM |
Saturday, March 27
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it doesn't matter how romantic i am.
Cause it all turned out the same.
A broken heart.
Sorry to say that i didn't put in my best yet.
But i didn't have the chance to.
it's over. thank you.
So there are actually some girls in the world that loves people to torture them.
The more they torture, the deeper she will go into you.
Right, 1st time encounter.
Will remember for life.
Now that i'm giving in, she doesn't like it.
Weird, but fuck it.
i love you, you don't appreciate.
There's more girls outside waiting for the romance.
Your job changed you.
Your new friends changed you.
The way your leading your life now changes everything.
i told you then, i tell you now.
It's your decision.
Don't you ever regret.
Cause regretting is the most miserable thing.
You gave me up 1st.
You think it's worth it?
Been through so much together and you wana end it like that.
Silly i must say, but i respect you.
Be gone.
I announce, You're out of the game.
i'm free. Anyone cool for a date?!
I may be the lover boy for you.
Who knows?
slammed - alac | 6:43 AM |
Friday, March 26
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Thanks people, for your comments. -hugs-
i asked myself when's the last time i took the effort to go all the way to tp to fetch her from school.
The answer is: so long time ago that i can't even remember. Haha. funny.
So yesterday i woke up abit early than usual, bought some chocs and set off to her sch.
Well, at least she gets a little suprise when she knew i was waiting for her.
Can i say that you're a little happier when you saw me?
Slacked at jane's house then to k-box executive. Denim night. Hahaha.
Each of us only pay 6! from 7 to 3!
Better than the normal k-box ladies night.
Had lots of fun running from one room to another, singing here and there.
Ly, jane and their guys in one.
Kaew, bao and friends in the other.
So me and gerald were like some
girls la! Going to the 2 rooms every half hour or so.
We danced around, re-enact mv, scream and shout, jump on the sofa, kneel on the ground etc...
with all the 3 microphones passing round and round.
Chance upon this meaningful song.
Decided to give her the 2nd suprise of the day.
And so i asked her in from another room when the song starts.
Everyone kept quiet as i sang
It Might Be You with all my heart and soul, looking at her.
Towards the end of the song, i kneel as though i'm proposing, held her hands
waiting for her to look into my eyes.
But she never!
She kept looking away lor!
Then finally the song ends, she got no choice but to turn her eyes to me.
I grabbed the chance and said a quick -i love you- and gave her a kiss to end it off.
Okay, i admit it doesn't really meant much but i did it all from my heart.
She seemed not at all touched or anything. I'm disappointed.
She gave me the feeling that she's gonna leave me any moment.
Perhaps i'm too sensitive. Hope so.
Feel aint that important to her..
The whole day spent with you, i treasure so much.
I don't know if i should feel happy or sad.
slammed - alac | 5:11 PM |
Wednesday, March 24
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She said.
I don't know what i want now.
I don't know whether i still want this.
I'm very confuse.
I've got no time to think about it.
i'm busy.
She said again.
I don't feel the same for you anymore.
You're not the one i will go to whenever i've got problems, anymore.
I learn so much from you and you didn't learn any from me.
You didn't grow in this relationship.
How can i be such a loser.
slammed - alac | 5:17 PM |
Monday, March 22
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Thank god i remembered the vcd i gave you on xmas.
And i took the effort to watch it.
It brought me back all the memories....
I still can recall the moment when the first tear roll down your cheeks, the vcd is only on the first slide.
How you tried hiding behind gerald cause you're so shy to let us see that you're crying?
The smirk that you gave, when people are envious over us.
They are always so fresh,playing a part in our memories.
It gave me hope again when i'm tired.
It pulled me back when i think i'm drifting away.
It made me wana say -i love you- so strongly all over again.
The sweet memories touched me somehow or another.
Maybe i still love you lots.
Or issit just the plain memories that i'm holding on to. -shrugs-
Something's telling me it might be you, all of my life...
slammed - alac | 5:48 PM |
Sunday, March 21
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Been so long since i stayed away from clubs on saturday.
Slacked the whole day at love's house with vern.
Enjoyed doing nothing and plain lazing around.
I wanted to play some badminton after dinner,
but that vern la!
SO LAZY LAZY LAZY!
Everything also don't wana do!
Manage to get to anne's house before 12.
Had a round of mahjong. The game is damn slow can?!
Play for 3 hours for just a round. My god.
In the end i lost 4 bucks. Play for so long then the win lose is so little. tmd.
Then to the game of cards.
Got a chance to sit down and talked cock.
Talked about what happened at mm yesterday,
how irritated ken and i was when someone says that we look alike?
how funny it is that dawn,anne,gerald and me can actually sit down and chat.Esp dawn la.
hahaha...
Drive to geylang for early breakfast then home sweet home.
-yawns- shall go back to sleep. nights!
slammed - alac | 4:59 PM |
Thursday, March 18
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Yesterday.
Finally manage to get a tan, on love's rooftop with nicole.
And now the three of us are like red or pink?
Didn't have the 20 to company me through mambo but 10 is already enough.
We have lots of fun too.
Weiting,Karyn and i were the loud speakers.
We shouted till our lungs nearly came out.
And my dear sok han just wana keep teasing my shy shy sheryl.lol
When are we heading for the zoo?
slammed - alac | 7:53 PM |
Sunday, March 14
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Nigel and Liling.
Best wishes.
The ceremony was so romantic.
No words can describe.
Was held at the poolside at Carlton Hotel.
The vows.
The "yes" and " i do-s".
The exchanging of rings.
The kiss.
The song
forever by damage.
All so perfect.
My dad,uncle and aunt were like feeling so emotional that the tears kept flowing.
I understand why, Cause my tears are in the eyes too.
My only brother got married and this is the first and last time i'm attending such ceremony of my sibling.
Oh ya, my bro cried too. Lol!
Okay, so our side is feeling damn emotional la and the girl's side was like giving those -oh ya, another of my girl got married- look.
So they are from a big family.
And they are so eager to see me, they were like asking, where's your sis? where's your sis?
Must be expecting to see a pretty and mature girl. haha.
But like in the end, it's like that.
I don't know what to say la.
But it does make me wana get married too.
There's this joke of the month.
When we're suppose to take family pictures that time,
The photographer didn't wana let me in and be part of the family.
Cause he thought i'm the photographer too.
And he kept giving me those annoying look as though i'm so extra to chap ji kah.
Shit.
My brother's childhood friend was there too.
He still look 20 though he's already 27? As cute as ever.
Shirt and pants made him look smart.
I like him. -nods-
He likes me too!
Among all my brother's friends who watch me grow, he loves me the most! Hahaha.
Yea, and today he was super nice to me. -smirks-
The sun is scorching hot when the vows were made.
Immediately after the ceremony is over, raindrops came.
Drop by drop it came.
The rain didn't get any bigger.
It just stayed this way.
It's dropping as if my mum was crying too.
As though the wedding touched my mum.
Mummy,
all you wish for and wanted to see is the important events in our lives.
You missed the graduation of kor. ( you always wanted kor to be a graduate. He did it.)
You missed the family photo taking of him graduating.
Now, you miss his wedding.
Although you can't be here with us to witness this event,
I do hope you're watching from above.
If only you're here mum, i miss you.
The joys keep coming, the tears keep flowing.
slammed - alac | 4:53 PM |
Friday, March 12
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Kaew is taking her tp now.
Hope she'll pass on her first!
Then we can have 3 cars to go out now!
hahaha....
Finally i see the sun after so many days.
Good, i can go for a tan. Guess it wun rain for the next few days bah.
So many outdoor activities awaits me.
I don't wana hide indoors anymore.
There's nothing to do.
I am dropping by bro's new house later to have a look.
He's stepping into the ROM on Sunday and he's making me the camera man!
How sad. But nevermind, at least i hope i can get myself away from the shirt and pants.
I hate to wear them. Yucks!
Vic just reminded me that i should get a wedding gift for him.
Yea, i should. -nods-
I love you, Nigel!
slammed - alac | 5:21 PM |
Tuesday, March 9
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// In loving memory of my blue baby. @ Moc.
From Nov 2003 to Mar 2004.
Here in our hearts, you will always be.
I think i need more retro.
Just can't get enough.
Oh,
honey was damn good!
I don't mind watching it again.
The show makes you wana move with it.
Hahaha.
Monster shall be the next one on my list.
Love. get your ic back and watch with me!
Ouch.
You said goodbye so easily without knowing how much you're hurting me.
I said i didn't wana let go.
You didn't even reply.
The next day you behaved as if nothing had happened,as if it was just a dream.
You continue talking about kisses,which made me confused,but happy.
I didn't ask more,cause i've always wanted this way.
You said you wana meet.
I am even happier.
And with the attitude both of us are giving, you said "let's not meet." so easily again.
I felt like i'm being played with.
I don't know what you want already.
I can't cope with your sudden mood swings.
All i have from you is "sorry,i'm having very bad pms."
Don't make me give up on you.
Enough, shall get back to my work.
slammed - alac | 2:52 PM |
Saturday, March 6
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Got a kiss from
bian bian(sheryl) last night...
hahaha....
She exchanged it for an answer she wanted to know badly.
Was really drunk last night.
Can't remember a thing again.
All love told me is that i kept crying...
Damn.
You.
Maybe it doesn't really make a diff whether i am here or there.
slammed - alac | 2:01 PM |
Wednesday, March 3
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I miss my ly.
I miss my friends,everyone of them.
I miss the love.
I miss my family.
I hate the greedy policemen.
I hate the rundown police stations.
I hate their green uniforms.
I hate their translators.
I hate the immigration officers.
I love Singapore Government.
I love the Singapore embassy in hcmc.
I love Miss Consulate General.
A big thank you.
Greatly appreciate Drake's family.
Especially David and Ah Leong.
A big thank you too.
Sat in the consulate general's big big car.
Those that has a singapore flag
standing in front of the car.
The feeling was goddamn good..
Sooooo Goooood!
Felt like some VIP.
lol..
Going out of city tmr.
To the country side for camping.
Gonna tan my life away.
Jump into the river and swim.
Play with the doberman.
Have a bbq.
Relax.
Enjoy.
Have fun.
And whatever good it may have on me.
I'm glad.
I 'm sick of it.
I don't wana think anymore.
Don't make me tear.
You could take a little trip around sinagpore town,
in a singapore city bus.
To see collyer quay and raffles place,
the esplanade and all of us!
Because we're in singapore,singapore
the hearts are big and wide you'll find.
Because we're in singapore,singapore
you'll find happiness(clap clap clap)
for everyone......
*Salutes to Singapore*
slammed - alac | 11:07 PM |